Oh, this uncertain life……..
I’ve always struggled with control. I think it became my mind’s coping mechanism after going through an emotionally troubled childhood. I used to have this incessant need of having to know every single detail of what’s going to happen in the day so that I get ready for it.
I was terrible at having to be spontaneous at things, I just couldn’t. If something came up that wasn’t planned for or wasn’t on the agenda, anxiety would take over and I wouldn’t know what to do with it.
I firmly believe that we meet people in life for a reason and that external relationships are a mirror of the internal relationship we have with ourselves.
In the same way that our thoughts attract our reality in life, the thoughts we have about our self will attract a certain type of partner. It was only when I learnt to truly love, accept myself and realise my worth, that I attracted a man who was worth having a relationship with.
We don’t meet people by chance; every single person we meet will help to teach us the lessons we need to learn to grow and develop in this lifetime. Sometimes we need to experience the bad to realise what good feels like!
We all have lessons that we can learn from love and relationships, whether we are single or in a relationship, what better time to reflect on the good, the bad and the ugly lessons we can learn from these experiences than on Valentine’s Day?
I have been incredibly busy over the summer! Although things have been quieter here, I’ve been ploughing away behind the scenes on a number of different projects, some of which I can now discuss.
It has been almost 4 years since I founded Balanced Being. Beginning as a platform to generate awareness of my health coaching, the site quickly became a platform to discuss and inspire a balanced lifestyle which eventually included a beautiful group of inspirational contributors.
Throughout this journey, I have often felt like I wasn’t quite reaching people to the extent I wanted to, and earlier this year I began developing a Balanced Being School’s programme with my wonderful and inspiring writer and mental health campaigner Dave Chawner. But, with red tape in every aspect of that development, I became a little disillusioned with the system.
For most of you that know me well, I do not give up when I’m motivated to do something! And so, in June I embarked on training with Beat; The UK’s leading eating disorder charity to become a Beat Media Ambassador and Campaigner. This week, as part of that new journey, I gave my first talk discussing my experience of Bulimia and how I recovered to the head office of the Girl Guiding Charity.